Unplugging

So I made a decision tonight to unplug from the net for a few days. I'm not sure exactly what I am going to do, but I really feel like I need to just take a step back for a bit and kinda recharge my batteries and reevaluate a few things in my life. So, I will likely not be updating the twitter, facebook, or blog for a few days at least while I attempt to rediscover my own personal path.

Double edged sword

I am going through a period where I am learning the hard way that some things just aren't worth fighting about. I am starting to understand that things are really not as big and dramatic as people make them out to be, I am beginning to see the people that really matter to me, and the ones that were just around because they wanted something from me. It's really a big lesson for me to learn and something I think I really needed. The past couple of days have taught me a lot.

People are not always what they seem at first, sometimes they are just wounded animals putting up a front. And sometimes they will snap and bite at the ones who are trying to be supportive. All things considered, I'm really not that upset. I was at first, but the more I think about it, and the more I look at the blessings I DO have in my life, the more I remember that people come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime...and when it's time for a reason or a season to move out, it's best to just let them go, hold the good times close and remember the lessons they brought with them.

So I am also learning that lessons are like a double edged sword. On one side, they're cutting things that are hindering you out of your life, and on the other, they are teaching you valuable lessons, such as; "Ouch, That's sharp...Don't touch that!"

Makeover time!

Well, I figured it was about time for a new look, so the blog got a makeover today! It's not the only thing that is going to be changing, so check back often! I start back to school Monday morning and I am taking a painting class this go around, so I'm going to have some new work to upload! :)

Au Revoir for now Blogland!

Pin up lesson - Learning more about my personal vision.

I learned some very valuable things yesterday at the Pinup Calendar photo shoot I went to. I went to help a friend with her photo shoot, and to help the photographer as well. She bought me the cutest little sailor outfit and took some pics with me as well. She did my makeup and hair for me and I had a good time and learned some very valuable things for me.

1. Pinup modeling is nowhere near as easy as they make it look. The poses are painful to hold, the lights are blinding, the clothes are uncomfortable, you pretty much have to kill your hair with product and the comments from the peanut gallery can make you feel like a piece of meat. Kudos to the Pin ups, You have more gusto than I do, I couldn't do what you girls do on a daily basis, I know cause I tried it!!!

2. Pinup modeling is NOT something I think I would be interested in for myself. While the thought did cross my mind, and I had considered it for a while, I really didn't like the way I looked in the pics that were taken of me. (But I LOVED the fake eyelashes!)

3. I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY!!! I always knew I loved photography, and I knew I would love it in many different ways, But wow...I got immersed in some full scale photography and I loved it! I really think I learned alot, not just about photography, but about modeling as well. I like the idea of bringing my own personal visions to life, and I learned a little bit about what people are always telling me when they say that I see things differently than most people.

Does this mean I'm not going to model for the people who have asked me to? Nope. Those shoots aren't pinup shoots. I think the Gothic and Fantasy themed shoots might be different for me, I know I can pull off a floor length black dress and boots... not so much on the mini skirt and heels. My legs are a little too short n' stubby for mini skirts. My body is more torso than leg and pinup clothes are not flattering on my body type. I'm also just simply not comfortable showing that much skin! I think that I might be more comfortable in a shoot that is themed towards things that I am already really interested in, aside from just looking pretty on camera.

All in all, I think I learned a huge lesson from this. I learned that even in a situation where I am not really as interested as I thoguht I was in the subject matter, I would still love to be the photographer. I learned that Pinup doesn't suit me. And I gained a whole new respect for the models that are out there everyday, putting themselves through this weird form of torture to make themselves look as amazing as they do! Bravo and Kudos to you all!

So, where do I go from here? Well, it's only one possibility checked off of my long list of options, and an affirmation of the photography option for me. I really enjoyed the setup, green screen, lights, and watching the photographer at work. I really enjoyed being behind the camera and taking a few shots of my own with my own perspective and they came out fantastic! :D

Aside from the lessons, I got some really cute pictures, and some not so cute pictures of myself to keep in my scrapbook. :) Adios Pinup! You're not for me! I sail on to other horizons. :)